Loneliness

Sitting on the waterfront looking out toward Toronto island waiting for an interview at 4, listening to Coldplays cracking tune Teardrops from Heaven; one can't help pondering life's predicament and the cards that it has dealt me in recent months.

I have sold my house as part of a divorce process, I lost my job, and subsequently moved into my own little one bedroom apartment. And while on the surface all this may appear to be hard times, I really can't submit to that ethos. 

On a stunningly crisp October afternoon, sitting, looking over the serene waterfront of lake Ontario, there is a sense of zen. People walk by with their dogs taking in the scene wrapped up in the trials of their own lives, young lovers sit on a bench playing and bonding. Boats move about the scene, planes come into land, carrying people from around the north eastern states. It is a scene of the world in harmony. 

Seagulls fly about scowling the terrain for morcels of food to scavenge and I sit upon a picnic table simply waiting. Waiting for the the 4 o'clock witching hour where I have to perform for a job I'm not entirely sure about. 

But all this is ok, this is a part of life, sometimes it's crazy, sometimes it's a little convoluted, sometimes it's a little confusing and most often times its just fun, so long as you look at it that way. Everything has its time, everything passes; bad times might seem to last forever, but they pass, and we are all the better for it, whether we think so or not. 

Sometimes I sit and feel alone, but what really is loneliness? Loneliness is more often a state of mind, if you think you're alone, then you shall be, but if you fill your time with things you like, then loneliness runs void. 

That time filler may come in the form of spending time with a loved one or mate, it might be writing, it might be working, watching a movie, listening to the most current songs from your favorite artist or producer, it may even be simply sitting on a picnic table taking in the scene and people watching.

What is loneliness? Loneliness is nothing, it's a temporary state of consciousness where as humans we wonder what others are doing, to the detriment of our own time that we have been given. I have no time for loneliness, because frankly, it's a waste of time.